Twelve years on from that affair, LAUREN SILVERMAN is finally ready to talk about life with fiancé Simon Cowell - kids, exes, name changes, and near-fatal accidents
Everyone thinks they know what makes a TOWIE Christmas: high drama, high hair and high finance, with storylines as combustible as a Christmas pudding soaked in brandy.
Pale, bald under my wide-brimmed hat, my stomach pushing out, I couldn't have looked or felt more different from my old self. So what changed - both physically and mentally?